Are you sure you know what ‘conspiracy’ means? I’m pretty sure you need more than one person for it to be a conspiracy. This one is just you.
Did I hit a sore spot asking about your dad? Let’s explore that. Do you remember when he left you? Did he ever lay his hands on you or your mother? Other siblings? Remember, it’s not your fault he hit you. You’re not a bad person.
Well, this has been fun. I respect your commitment to the bit, but I’ve wasted too much time on this conversation already, and I’d rather be spending it doing literally anything else.
In all seriousness though, I do hope you seek therapy. This level of toxic internet behavior really isn’t healthy.