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My Sensory Processing Disorder is what got me on the road to my autism diagnosis in adulthood, it’s bad.
And I’ve heard the “gotcha” about music and concerts so many times, especially since I too am a massive fan of “computer noises *” (honestly though classical music concerts are the worst offender because all you can hear is others around you clearing throats, coughing, opening candy wrappers… It’s like torture), but somehow only just recently the penny dropped - it’s a stim!
So not only is it the choice thing and the fact that you can follow music vs how sudden/sharp noises just completely scramble your brain and all that other stuff, but also - it’s calming to the nervous system (especially when you’re having a sensory overload and putting headphones with loud music on is enough to block out the noise, never mind a defence against that in the first place), it’s giving me something enjoyable to focus on, it’s giving me these lovely sounds to vocalise along with (vocal stimming/echolalia, which can be harder with lyrics vs just music because words make you think), it’s probably the only thing other than my cat purring that I can completely sink in to even if it’s just for a minute or two to get a break from the internal noise in my head (doesn’t always work, but nothing else does).
None of that helps explain it to the NTs though, more often than not when I try their instinct is to make as many horrible noises as they can, and not just then, but at random points later to “test” me, or worse, openly state that they are doing it to trigger me because they find my distressed reaction hilarious. A few do get it, and they try their best, but it’s still a constant asking them to “please not”, and if they can hear that without taking it personally and getting upset, then you know they can stay lol
*here was what I originally linked but then my playlist changed my mind, but both are good, listen to both lol
Wow, I can’t comprehend how much of a crayon eating, gasoline guzzling failure of a human one can be, just because “it’s so much fun”. It makes me furious only reading about it.
I thought they might, but “crayon eating, gasoline guzzling failure of a human” is the kind of language those same people who do that would use, so it’s thrown me. If that is what they meant, that’s a really poor way of phrasing it, especially in a space like this…
Sorry, If it wasn’t clear to you. I thought it was obvious, so I didn’t think much about it. I meant that those people, who pick on you for having sensory issues, are assholes. I also have problems with sensory input and if someone were to make fun of me for having these problems, I’d be absolutely livid about it.
I always love running across other IM fans in the wild. Those guys’ music has such a special place in my heart for personal sentimental reasons but it’s also consistently some of the most unique, varied, and surprising stuff I listen to, and I listen to a lot of EDM/IDM.
Been listening to them for over 20 years, and they’re pretty much all I listen to nowadays (Cream is on in the background as I type lol), there isn’t just a track for every mood, but like 10… I’ve been narrowing their complete discography down and got a main playlist of over 350 tracks, and of those I’ve marked just under 100 as favourites. Which is wild, really…
While I first heard Bust a Move probably around 2002 I was way too young to really appreciate it. I got reintroduced to their stuff when a friend threw on “The Pretender” in late 2016 and blew my mind. Since then I’ve favorited over 150 tracks off of 44 releases, which is absolutely insane as most of my other favorite artists top out at maybe 30 tracks. I was lucky enough to get to see them perform a DJ set in 2019 where I heard the first half of “Ani Mevushal” before it was released which was amazing. I would love to get the chance to see them again.
Oh my glob, that’s such a fantastic album. It took me a while to warm up to it, mostly because I first heard it over my shitty pc speakers (I should have known better but I was too excited to hear their new stuff!), but once I heard it on my headphones I was blown away…
It’s definitely a divisive one, most of my friends that enjoy the rest of their stuff are pretty meh on it but I can’t get enough of it. I definitely haven’t played any other album start to finish even half as much as that one.
I don’t think there’s a whole album I can play start to finish, mostly because of the sensory issues, but the ones I’ve got most tracks from on my favourites are all newer albums…
I tend to get hooked on the newer stuff for a while, guess it’s more fresh to the brain (even if it isn’t actually new, but just new to me, like this.
From converting vegetarians, I go nuts during the “shaka ka ka ka ka ka ka … shaka ka ka ka… sha kawwww”. I’m right there with you vocalizing to our awesome computer music.
I also had the modem dialing up sound as my ring tone for a while in college … because it made me happy. It really is so different when we WANT to have our systems overwhelmed and swim in the shutdown. Thanks for sharing your links, was a nice surprise when I wasn’t necessarily expecting IM :D
(You may also like Holly Herndon and BT, if you don’t already listen to them)
Modem dialling sound is a littlie too screechy for me, I guess it’s residual trauma from the days where my parents would try to log on while I was on the phone lmao
Gave a couple of Holly Herndon tracks a quick listen, some bits are great but others are a little breathy for me. What does BT stand for?
My Sensory Processing Disorder is what got me on the road to my autism diagnosis in adulthood, it’s bad.
And I’ve heard the “gotcha” about music and concerts so many times, especially since I too am a massive fan of “computer noises *” (honestly though classical music concerts are the worst offender because all you can hear is others around you clearing throats, coughing, opening candy wrappers… It’s like torture), but somehow only just recently the penny dropped - it’s a stim!
So not only is it the choice thing and the fact that you can follow music vs how sudden/sharp noises just completely scramble your brain and all that other stuff, but also - it’s calming to the nervous system (especially when you’re having a sensory overload and putting headphones with loud music on is enough to block out the noise, never mind a defence against that in the first place), it’s giving me something enjoyable to focus on, it’s giving me these lovely sounds to vocalise along with (vocal stimming/echolalia, which can be harder with lyrics vs just music because words make you think), it’s probably the only thing other than my cat purring that I can completely sink in to even if it’s just for a minute or two to get a break from the internal noise in my head (doesn’t always work, but nothing else does).
None of that helps explain it to the NTs though, more often than not when I try their instinct is to make as many horrible noises as they can, and not just then, but at random points later to “test” me, or worse, openly state that they are doing it to trigger me because they find my distressed reaction hilarious. A few do get it, and they try their best, but it’s still a constant asking them to “please not”, and if they can hear that without taking it personally and getting upset, then you know they can stay lol
*here was what I originally linked but then my playlist changed my mind, but both are good, listen to both lol
Wow, I can’t comprehend how much of a crayon eating, gasoline guzzling failure of a human one can be, just because “it’s so much fun”. It makes me furious only reading about it.
Can you please clarify?
They mean that the people fucking with you by making noise on purpose are assholes
I thought they might, but “crayon eating, gasoline guzzling failure of a human” is the kind of language those same people who do that would use, so it’s thrown me. If that is what they meant, that’s a really poor way of phrasing it, especially in a space like this…
Sorry, If it wasn’t clear to you. I thought it was obvious, so I didn’t think much about it. I meant that those people, who pick on you for having sensory issues, are assholes. I also have problems with sensory input and if someone were to make fun of me for having these problems, I’d be absolutely livid about it.
Yes, exactly. Thanks!
I always love running across other IM fans in the wild. Those guys’ music has such a special place in my heart for personal sentimental reasons but it’s also consistently some of the most unique, varied, and surprising stuff I listen to, and I listen to a lot of EDM/IDM.
Spot on. Also often cheeky.
Been listening to them for over 20 years, and they’re pretty much all I listen to nowadays (Cream is on in the background as I type lol), there isn’t just a track for every mood, but like 10… I’ve been narrowing their complete discography down and got a main playlist of over 350 tracks, and of those I’ve marked just under 100 as favourites. Which is wild, really…
While I first heard Bust a Move probably around 2002 I was way too young to really appreciate it. I got reintroduced to their stuff when a friend threw on “The Pretender” in late 2016 and blew my mind. Since then I’ve favorited over 150 tracks off of 44 releases, which is absolutely insane as most of my other favorite artists top out at maybe 30 tracks. I was lucky enough to get to see them perform a DJ set in 2019 where I heard the first half of “Ani Mevushal” before it was released which was amazing. I would love to get the chance to see them again.
Good to know it’s not just me then lol
Most definitely not. Aaaaaand now I think I’ll start the day off with Converting Vegetarians II haha.
Oh my glob, that’s such a fantastic album. It took me a while to warm up to it, mostly because I first heard it over my shitty pc speakers (I should have known better but I was too excited to hear their new stuff!), but once I heard it on my headphones I was blown away…
It’s definitely a divisive one, most of my friends that enjoy the rest of their stuff are pretty meh on it but I can’t get enough of it. I definitely haven’t played any other album start to finish even half as much as that one.
I don’t think there’s a whole album I can play start to finish, mostly because of the sensory issues, but the ones I’ve got most tracks from on my favourites are all newer albums…
I tend to get hooked on the newer stuff for a while, guess it’s more fresh to the brain (even if it isn’t actually new, but just new to me, like this.
From converting vegetarians, I go nuts during the “shaka ka ka ka ka ka ka … shaka ka ka ka… sha kawwww”. I’m right there with you vocalizing to our awesome computer music.
I also had the modem dialing up sound as my ring tone for a while in college … because it made me happy. It really is so different when we WANT to have our systems overwhelmed and swim in the shutdown. Thanks for sharing your links, was a nice surprise when I wasn’t necessarily expecting IM :D
(You may also like Holly Herndon and BT, if you don’t already listen to them)
I love that track!
And your comment reminded me of a youtube comment that really made me lol the other day, someone posted the lyrics, and then someone replies
Waaaah! Waaaah! Waaaah! Waaaahaaaaahh! Waaaah!
And it’s just so accurate 🤣
Modem dialling sound is a littlie too screechy for me, I guess it’s residual trauma from the days where my parents would try to log on while I was on the phone lmao
Gave a couple of Holly Herndon tracks a quick listen, some bits are great but others are a little breathy for me. What does BT stand for?